i want to sleep a lot. i want to fuck a lot. i want to fall in love and stay up late every night. i want to laugh till i cry. get stoned. get drunk. then i want to die when i'm 20. i cannot imagine me growing up, having a 'normal' life. study, work, breed, raise, die. no thankyou. the thought of that does not appeal to me one bit. saying that probably makes me seem immature and stupid but really, i do not care one bit for a life like that. i really just want to live whilst i'm young, i want to be happy and and just enjoy every little thing. the idea of a normal mediocre life depresses me.

but whatever. lyf sux den u die.

i feel weird tonight

last night was pretty good. so sleepy now though. probably won't end up going to school, again.

no one understands my love for this man oh my god he is perfect. can we all just have a moment to stare at his beauty.

had a fight with mum today. accidently punched her in the face because she slapped me, i guess it was a reflex. i don't know. i completely broke down afterwards though. i just sat in the corner of my room, stuck my earphones in my ear, put nirvana on and turned it up as far as it would go and cried my eyes out. mum came in and said some things but i couldn't hear her and then she just ran to me and wrapped her arms around me and kissed me on the top of the head.

i need to sort myself out.

I stare at myself in the mirror and I think, 'Wow, I'm really great-looking.'... I think I'm the greatest, anyway. - Iggy Pop

watching romeo + juliet, it's so good. depressing though.